The Practice of Piety, Treatise · Part 27
A Prayer when one begins to be sick.
O Most righteous Judge, yet in JESUS CHRIST my gracious Father: I wretched sinner do here return unto thee (though driven with pain and sickness) like the prodigal Child with want and hunger. I acknowledge that this sickness and pai… comes not by blind chance or fortune, but by thy divine providence, and special appointment. It is the stroke of thy heavy hand, which my sins have justly deserved:Job 3. 25. and the things that I feared, are now faln upon me. Yet I do well perceive, Hab. 3. 2.that in wrath thou remembrest mercy, when I consider how many, and how hainous are my sins, and how few and easie are thy corrections. Thou mightest have strucken me with some fearful and sudden death, whereby I should not have had either time or space to have called upon thee for grace and mercy; and so I should have perished in my sins, and have been for ever condemned in hell.
But thou, O Lord, visitest me with such a fatherly chastisement, as thou usest to visit thy dearest Children whom thou best lovest: giving me (by this sicknes) both warning and time to repent, and to sue unto thee for grace and pardon. I take not therefore, O Lord, this thy visitation, as any sign of thy wrath or hatred; but as an assured pledge, and token of thy favour and loving kindness, whereby thou dost with thy temporal Judgments draw me to judge my self, and to repent of my wicked life,1 Cor. 11. 13. that I should not be condemned with the godless and unrepentant World. For thy holy Word assures me, that whom thou lovest, thou thus chastenest: Heb. 12. 6, 7. &c.and that thou scourgest every son that thou receivest. That if I endure thy chastening, thou offerest thy self unto me as unto a son: and that all that continue in sin, and yet escape without correction (whereof all thy children are partakers) are bastards and not sons; and that thou chastenest me for my profit, that I may be a partaker of thy holiness. O Lord, how full of goodness is thy Nature, that hast dealt with me so graciously in the time of my health and prosperity: and now being provoked by my sins and unthankfulness, hast such fatherly and profitable ends, in inflicting upon me this sickness and correction!
I confess, Lord, that thou dost justly afflict my Body with sickness, for my Soul was sick before of a long prosperity, and surfeited with ease, peace, plenty, and fulness of bread. And now, O Lord, I lament and mourn for my sins:Psal. 51. 3. I acknowledge my wickedness, and mine iniquities are always in my sight. Oh, what a wretched sinner am I, void of all goodness by nature, and full of evil by sinful custom! Oh, what a world of sin have I committed against thee, whilst thy long-sufferance expected my conversion, and thy blessings wooed me to repentance! Yet, O my God, seeing it is thy property more to respect the goodness of thine own nature, than the deserts of sinners, I beseech thee, O Father, for thy Son Jesus Christ his sake, and for the merits of that all saving death which he hath voluntarily suffered for all which believe in him,Psal. 51. 1. Have mercy upon me, according to the multitude of thy mercies; turn thy face away from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities: Verse 11.Cast me not out of thy presence, †Psal. 28. 4.neither reward me according to my deserts: For if thou dost reject me, who will receive me? or who will succour me, if thou dost forsake, me? But thou, O Lord, art the helper of the helpless: Hos. 14. 3.and in thee the fatherless findeth mercy: for though my sins be exceeding great, yet thy mercy, O Lord, far exceedeth them all: neither can I commit so many, as thy grace can remit and pardon. Wash therefore, O Christ my sins with the vertue of thy precious Blood, especially those sins, which from a penitent heart I have confessed unto thee: but chiefly, O Lord, for Christ his sake forgive me*Here name that sin which most troubleth thy conscience.. And seeing that of thy love thou didst lay down thy life for my ransom, when I was thine enemy: Oh save now the price of thine own Blood, when it shall cost thee but a smile upon me, or a gracious appearance in thy Father's sight in my behalf. Reconcile me once again, O merciful Mediator, unto thy Father: for though there be nothing in me that can please him: yet I know that in thee, and for thy sake,Mat. 3. 17. he is well pleased with all whom thou acceptest and lovest. And if it be thy blessed Will, remove this sicknes from me, and restore me to my former health again; that I may live longer to set forth thy glory and to be a comfort to my friends which depend upon me; and to procure to my self a more setled assurance of that heavenly inheritance which thou hast prepared for me. And then, Lord, thou shalt see how religiously and wisely I shall redeem the time, Eph. 5. 16.which heretofore I have so lewdly and prophanely spent. And to the end, that I may the sooner and the easier be delivered from this pain and sickness, direct me, O Lord, I beseech thee, by thy divine providence, to such a Physician and helper, as that (by thy blessing upon the means) I may recover my former health and welfare again. And, good Lord, vouchsafe, that as thou hast sent this sickness unto me, so thou wouldst likewise be pleased to send thy holy Spirit into my heart, whereby this present sickness may be sanctified unto me: that I may use it as thy School, wherein I may learn to know the greatness of my misery, and the riches of thy mercy; that I may be so humbled at the one, that I despair not of the other: and that I may so renounce all confidence of help in my self, or in any other creature; that I may only put the whole rest of my salvation in thy all sufficient merits. And forasmuch as thou knowest, Lord, how weak a vessel I am, full of frailty and imperfections: and that by Nature I am angry and froward under every Cross and Affliction:Jam. 1. 17. Joh. 3. 27. O Lord, who art the giver of all good gifts, arm me with patience to endure thy blessed will and pleasure, and of thy mercy lay no more upon me, 1 Cor. 10. 13.than I shall be able to endure and suffer. Give me grace to behave my self in all patience, love, and meekness, unto those that shall come and visit me; that I may thankfully receive, and willingly embrace all good counsels and consolations from them: and that they may likewise see in me such a good example of Patience, and hear from me such godly lessons of comfort, as may be arguments of my Christian faith and profession, and instructions unto them, how to behave themselves when it shall please thee to visit them, with the like affliction of sickness. I know, O Lord, I have deserved to die; and I desire not longer to live, than to amend my wicked life, and in some better measure to set forth thy glory. Therefore, O Father, if it be thy blessed will, restore me to health again, and grant me a longer life. But if thou hast, according to thine eternal decree, appointed by this sickness to call for me out of this transitory life; I resign my self into thy hands, and holy pleasure; thy blessed will be done, Psal. 31. 5.whether it be by life or by death. Only I beseech thee of thy mercy forgive me all my sins, and prepare my poor soul, that by a true faith, and unfeigned repentance, she may be ready against the time that thou shalt call for her out of my sick and sinful body. O heavenly Father,Psal. 65. 2. 1. Kin. 8. 39. who art the hearer of prayers, hear thou in heaven this my prayer; and in this extremity grant me these requests: not for any worthiness that is in me, but for the merits of thy beloved Son Jesus, my only Saviour and Mediator; for whose sake thou hast promised to hear us, and to grant whatsoever we shall ask of thee in his Name. Joh. 16. 23.In his Name therefore and in his own words, I conclude this my imperfect Prayer, saying, Our Father which art in Heaven, Hallowed by thy Name, &c.
Having thus reconciled thy self unto God in Christ;
1. Let thy next care be to set thy House in order, as Esay advised King Hezekias: Isa. 38. 1.making thy last Will and Testament, (if it be not already made.) If it be made, then peruse it, confirm it, and for avoiding all doubts and contention, publish it before Wittnesses, that (if God call for thee out of this life) it may stand in force and unalterable, as thy last Will and Testament, and so deliver it locked or sealed up in some Box, to the keeping of a faithful Friend, in the presence of honest Witnesses.
2. But in making thy Testament, take a Religious Divine's Advice, how to bestow thy Benevolence; and some honest Law…er's counsel, to continue it according to Law.
Dispatch this before thy sickness doth …crease, and thy memory decay: lest otherwise thy Testament prove a dotement, and so be another man's fancy, rather than thy Will.
3. To prevent many inconveniences, let me recommend to thy discretion two things.
1. If God hath blessed thee with any competent state of wealth, make thy Will in thy health-time. It will neither put thee farther from thy goods, nor hasten thee sooner to thy Death: but it will be a greater ease to thy mind in freeing thee from a great trouble when thou shalt have most need of quiet; for when thy House is set in order, thou shalt be better enabled to set thy Soul in order, and to dispose of thy Journey towards God.
2. If thou hast Children, give to every one of them a Portion, according to thy ability, in thy life-time; that thy life may seem an ease, and not a yoak unto them; yet so give, as that thy Children may still be beholden unto thee, and no… thou unto them. But if thou keep all i… thy hands whilst thou livest, they may thank Death, and not thee for the portion that thou leavest them. If thou hast n… Children, and the Lord hath blest the… with a great portion of the goods of thi… World, and if thou meanest to bestow them upon any charitable or pious uses put not over that good work to the trus… of others, seeing thou seest how most o… other mens Executors prove almost Exe… cutioners. And if Friends be so unfaithfu… in a man's life, how much greater caus… hast thou to distrust their fidelity afte… thy death? Lamentable experience sheweth how many dead men's Wills have of la… either been quite concealed, utterly overthrown, or by cavils and quirks of Law, frustrated or altered: whereas by the Law of God, the will of the dead should not be*Gal. 3. 15. Heb. 9. 17. violated; but all his godly intentions conscionably performed and fulfilled, as in the sight of God, who in the Day of the Resurrection, will bea2 Cor. 5. 10. Eccl. 12. 14. Rom. 2. 15. 1 Cor. 4. 5. just Judge both of the quick and dead. And if any thing should hap in his Will to be ambiguous or doubtful, it should be*Voluntas testatoris magis inspicienda est quàm verba, l. cum virum sect. sani. C. de fidei, cum ff. ad leg. Fal. l. si ff. ad Treb. l. ubi sect. te rogo. construed as it might come nearest to the Honour of God, and the honest Intention of the Testator. But let the vengeance due to such unchristian Deeds, light on the Actors that do them, not on the Kingdom wherein they are suffered to be done. And let other rich Men be warned by such wretched examples not so to†Matrimonium inter Aurum & Arcam, divortium inter Deum & Animam. Aug. Foelix quem faciunt aliena pericula cautum. marry their Minds to their Money; as that they will do no good with their Goods, till Death divorceth them. Considering therefore the shortness of thine own life, and the uncertainty of others just dealing after thy death, in these unjust days: let me advise thee (whom God hath blessed with ability and an intent to do good) to become in thy life time, thine own Administrator: make thine own Hands thine Executors, and thine own Eyes thy Over-seers; cause thy Lanthorn to give her light before thee, and not behind thee: give God the Glory, and thou shalt receive of him inaGal. 6. 9. due time thebMar. 10. 42. Mar. 9. 41. Matth. 25. 34, &c. Luk. 14. 14. & 18. 22. 1 Cor. 15. 58. Rev. 14. 13. reward, which of his grace and mercy he hath promised to thy good works.
4. Having thus set thy House and Soul in order (if thecJob. 14. 5. determined number of thy days be not expired) God will either have mercy upon thee, and say,dJob 33. 24. Spare him (O killing Malady) that he go not down into the pit, for I have received a reconciliation: Or else, his Fatherly providence will direct thee to such a Physician, and to suche2 Kin. 20. 7. 2. King. 5. 7, 8, 10. Joh. 9. 7. means, as that by his blessing upon their endeavours thou shalt recover, and be restored to thy former Health again. But in any wise, take heed that thou, nor none for thee, send unto Sorcerers, Wizards, Charmers, or Inchanters for help: for this were to leave the God of Israel, and to go to*2 King, 1. 2, 3. Baal-zebub, the God of Ekron, for help, as did wicked Ahaziah, and to break thy Vow which thou hast made with the blessed Trinity in thy Baptism: and be sure that God will never give a Blessing by those means which he hath accursed;Lev. 20. 6. Deut. 18. 10, &c. but if he permit Satan to cure thy Body, fear lest it tend to the damnation of thy Soul. Thou art†Deut. 13. 3. tried, beware.
5. When thou hast sent for the Physician, take heed that thou put not thy trust rather in the Physician than in the Lord, as Asa did; of whom it is said, that he sought not to the Lord in his Disease, 2 Chron. 16. 12.but to the Physician: which is a kind of Idolatry, that will increase the Lord's anger, and make the Physick received uneffectual. Use therefore the Physician as God's Instrument, and Physick as God's Means. And seeing it is not lawful without Prayer to use ordinary food, 1 Tim. 4. 4. much less extraordinary Physick (whose good effect depends upon the blessing of God) before thou takest thy Physick,Jer. 8. 22. pray therefore heartily unto God to bless it unto thy use, in these or the like words.